Cuando murió Michael sentí la necesidad de comunicarme con alguien que le hubiera conocido de verdad, en persona, y durante mucho tiempo. Karen Faye Kissinger me aceptó en su facebook de entonces (creo que ese facebook ya lo quitó) y tuvo el detalle de responderme con una corta pero efectiva respuesta (a la que yo ya no contesté, obviamente) y me dejó tranquila y en paz, pues había logrado hacer llegar mis palabras a alguien que estuvo a su lado durante muchos años... Hoy, haciendo limpieza de la bandeja de mensajes de mi facebook, me he encontrado con esto, y tal vez a alguno de vosotros os interese leerlo, porque os sintáis interesados o, simplemente, porque os apetezca.
Un saludo a todos, y no os olvidéis nunca de quién fue, es y será el Rey.
September 28, 2009 Cristina Álvarez
I'm sure you're recieving lots of e-mails. I don't need you to send me words back. I just want to say to you that, I don't know you, but I'm so happy Michael had a friend 'gemini' like me. I was born on 11th June. I don't know why but I feel you're such a geminian (I don't know the exact word) woman and I'm sure you helped Michael so much in his life.
It has to be really incredible being a friend of a person that has touched billion of hearts around the world. And I'm sure that it is also because you're special too. I'm completely sure.
"Michael Jackson" sounds like something no one can touch or reach or be a friend of... But I truly belive and can imagine that he was also a beautiful human being, with pros and cons, with also lots of problems, but ... Oh, my God, how many hearts he touched! (and still does) I am one and you are one.
My congratulations for all your good work with Michael and all my good energy, even not knowing you as a person, I just want to send you all the luck in the world for your project of life. And I hope that you're happy with all you do.
Lots of love from Barcelona,
Cristina.
PS: If one day you're coming to Barcelona you got a personal guider to explore this wonderful city
October 13, 2009 Cristina Álvarez
You'd think that I'm one fan more, but do you know what happens with people that admire MJ? I'm sure everyone of us think we're so near from him and that we understand him more than anyone.
I just wanted to let you know that I feel so near from him.
I can say the last years I abandoned him, yes. I am not proud of it. But in a very strange and magic way he's like living in my heart or, I don't know, but I feel so close to him, even feeling that he also does with me.
It's so incredible, Karen, 'cause I'm a very sceptic person, I mean, I studied philosophy and I also try to make music and write, but in my life I never had something to believe in. I'm not religious, I don't consider human being is better than animals... But with MJ's music I started to have faith, to feel faith, I know it sounds hard but he guided me, since the age of 5 maybe, to follow the way to goodness. I think he's so fucking proud about this, because I'm not the only one that feels this way. And he knew it.
When I was very little I always felt so special, but not because of people telling me this, I felt -different- of all people, and when I 'met' Michael I felt he was one of mines. I shared with him my perspectives of life, and he did also with me.
I felt so near from him, I was a very lonely child and teenager. Now, as an adult, I'm no longer feeling alone, well, I think loneliness was also a good thing when I was little. Because of that I am the person I am today. And I have to thank Michael for that. And that's why I'm writting to you, to say it to him through you. I'm completely sure you're recieving lots of letters. And I don't expect you're gonna read this, but I feel satisfied because I'm sure you will recieve it.
Definetely I am one fan more, yes. But I had a dream hours after his death, he was with me and he came closely to my ear and whispered: I don't wanna leave. I said to him in my english of Spain: Don't leave! But he started to go away from me, saying good bye. Isn't it a strange dream?
Well, thank you very much. You are amazing and I wish all the best for you. And one more thing: In a photo where you were with your boyfriend you said to us that you wish we have the chance to be loved and love as you are doing. I can tell you I have a person who loves me, and I love her too. We're such a great couple. She paints, I sing, she draws, I write... We are so happy with our creative things and that's it, I understood those words you said. When you're happy you want to tell everybody how you are and you want everybody to feel the way you're feeling.
That's all
Thank you if you read this!
Cris.
October 16, 2009Cristina Álvarez
Time to say good bye. Thank you very much.
Hello, Karen. I just wanted to say to you that it's time for me to leave your facebook. Don't misunderstand me but I feel all this is helpful and I think this is like a big responsability for you, and maybe you're feeling tired about all this. I think right now you understand Michael more than ever, it has to be hard to 'listen' to all the fans and all the people that comes and says their thing. For me it is.
I'm leaving but I will always have Michael and his good friends in my heart forever.
I wish everything is ok with you and I thank you so much for accepting my friend request for a while in your FB.
It's time for me to give silence to Michael, I couldn't in the past months (it seems days or like an strange compacted time) but now I feel it's time to stop all this and sigh and love Michael once again more than ever in the great and peacefully lake of Silence.
His music will be the sea of my faith. His music is the sea of love where I surf with the boat of Life. He brings me peace more than anyone.
I will never forget this. I will never forget him. I'm crying.
Thank you very much and God, those energies that we call God, bless you.
Cristina Álvarez.
Karen Faye Kissinger October 17, 2009
Safe Journey
love,
Karen
:*)
